You cant expect real friends when you are living a fake life. That was a truth bomb. It dropped a wedge in your mind but I know you will soon let it go. It feels much better to live in the fake.
Fake friends that are real friends that are fake friends. Familiar voices saying familair things and yet not saying anything of substance at all.
You can feel yourself disappearing into the ether. No rhyme or reason, no poetry. Only smoke and illuision.
And you dont know if you are getting better or worse at being human. Da*n thats rough.