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It's no exageration to say
has not been easy for us...
even though, when we first met
i started... a broken man ...defiant,
more so than reasonable, a man without a plan
having pursued a path, once smooth ...and measured
too much, too soon drifting, out of hand,
out of reach, out of mind, out of orbit,
out of time, even more so inclined, even when
i needed a helping hand/ to remain defiant
decline... the emergent reality
too proud/foolish... to understand how, to
accept defeat, too... sadly, resigned to...
make final preparations,
to surrender the position, i could no longer hold
too embarrassed not to fold immediately
retreating to the point of release...
...and let go...
Now...
in freefall
uncertainty, rules...
when/if, survival occurs
it ...removes all assurances
only faith, rules...
and so, crash landing
finds me ...still alive, though...
in no position to immediately respond
in no condition, to pick up where i left off
to begin recovery, of the bliss...
to flip the switch from where last we were
...and carry on...
if/when, our love returns
i am ready... with you...
as i believe, still...
you are, the
...one
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