I’ll show you what it’s like trying to defeat the other side of me the part that gets lost in these insecurities that seem cloud my mind with thoughts and delusional dreams of what really isn’t happening . That’s me closing off my heart to such a enemy called love always yearning but never really having the confidence to let us both co exist my brain is overwhelmed by the negatives in my conscious and I get pissed cuz I feel I can’t conquer this but you give me strength I fall back but I never bend I wait for you to call back cuz I know your not like THEM. But then I find myself praying it won’t end the thought 💠of love being my closest friend rejection seems to have me wondering ... but I can’t let it win I mean these thoughts these worries that cater to my fears have become a trend looking back they seem closer then they appear