spirit of obligation and feeling like you supposed to is draining you I know because it drain me sitting in the driveway on E feeling like you owe somebody is a debt you can never pay off and those who know you feel like you owe them something will continue to collect payments it's a emotional rollercoaster you can't wait until it stop so you can get off but realize it's not gone stop until you fall off so you hang on for dear life and continue to ride it out it's not worth it the is price too high