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You Cannot Have It

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“You cannot have it,” my mother said as thing displayed itself in glory and in arrogance.

The thing that was a solution to want.

The thing, a toy, a trifle an adolescent idol,

Was all I needed to be happy.

Look away said my eyes, 

As they burned with desire and dried

From staring

And glaring 

And hoping.

 

“You cannot have it,” said the voice of my mother that is there when she is not.

The recording,

Of the warnings,

Of life, loss and strife.

That in youth sounded like knives—

And cut my spirit.

But… now cuts the loneliness when I hear it.

 

Back then I looked upon it like Lot’s wife,

Salted and Immobile 

For a memory of a dream

That never was.

But, I played it back— just because…

I wanted it to be true.

I stole it. Youth makes you fearless like that.

I stole it because I envisioned it into possession,

I carried that idea until obsession.

And, my imagination kept me going for 20 odd years.

Believing I would return,

With all I had earned,

And finally carry it home.

 

Not enough.

Never enough.

 

“You cannot have it,” I tell myself.

And it hurts again.

And, anew… and even more.

Because I have no youth to steal it,

And no vision to manufacture a fraud

Or a totem or tinker.

Just an echo and a warning,

And a memory of disappointment,

And longing— for a longing.

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The Immortal Wize says:

Totally Speechless!

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SirenLyricMuse says:

I appreciate you, Poet Wise :)

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Charles2 says:

You are a very accomplished word dancer.
 

love_supreme says:

Definitely did not see this one coming, excellent write.

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Kingqadardwon' says:

Outstanding capture
 

ChapterKiana says:

woowww. I love this
 

LP45 says:

Excellent write SirenLyricMuse. Thank you for sharing this.
 

SirenLyricMuse says:

Thank you ChapterKiana!!!
 

SirenLyricMuse says:

I appreciate you LP45 :0) Thank you!!

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SirenLyricMuse says:

lol! Charles2 I luv that, thank you!!!

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