Trying to let go of you while holding on to my sanity
It's like forgetting the peices of you between the sheets of another...it doesn't work, they always find their way back.
Like breadcrumbs leading me back to toxicity.
I've tried to let go but you've tied your self to my soul,
etched your name deep into my heart so that no one else can reside there.
See I've traced every inch of your body and memorized your face and all of it's movements from the apples of your cheeks how they protrude when you smile to how your eyelashes look while you sleep.
I once told you no one will ever love you as much as I love you and I stand by that, but now I'm left pondering...
obsessing really,
on why I was never good enough for you to return the love I gave.
Now I am nothing but damaged goods, somewhat of a fein
searching in others to feel the way I felt when I was with you,
but nobody can compare.
If you ask me why I love you I won't be able to put it into words but millions of memories will flash in front of me
moments of when we smiled together and the moments I felt whole and then I come back to reality and realize I'm nothing but a shell of who I used to be before I loved you
because I poured everything I had into you.
jbreezy
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