I allow my internal darkness to express itself as much as possible to be good all the time is impossible I can no longer keep the peace I house a beast I struggle to keep under control if only but to save my soul otherwise I'd take it off the leash let it go free to incriminate me I can't do that "I know it ain't me" I mean the part of me I don't necessarily want to be I try to avoid those who bring it out of me the older I get there's no filtering the profanity it's like I don't care but I do but I still don't care it's difficult to explain and hard to share with those I love I only love a few and love em too much to tell em the truth "I'm not trying to hurt feelings" I don't want nobody around me crying because I gave em a piece of my mind I get uptight and have to unwind I wish they all would leave me alone sometime if you play with a loaded gun it's liable to go off