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Mentally I'm drowned in confusion, the grip on reality I'm loosing, no control over my emotions , a beautiful disaster who am I fooling, feeding my ego while starting my pride , drowning the negative thoughts without chasers because I'm hurting inside , I can't sleep at night constantly tossing and turning , alert of discernment , trapped in conviction lost souls in my body from sexual addiction, emotionally scorn from childhood misfortunes, regretful tears , confronting fears , depression set in for many years , misled strung along , used and abused , still healing from wounds I can't get In tune heavy blues , at times I don't even care what I to lose, this is where anxiety turns to aggression and depression is a cruel dude, the pressures of life will have you ready to go dumb but I'm no fool, Mentally I'm drowned in confusion, I don't know where I stand , I mean I have a plan, or had a plan ,planned to plan, plans didn't land Mentaly I'm drowned in confusion , abused misused rejected neglected untamed insane is just a few to name my mind is like endless time it just keeps going and going , full speed no breaks just break downs, a lot of take me nows , it's so hard staying a float , with mental currents pulling me down ROCK THE BOAT! I'm on a emotional roller coaster I can't with stand this ride, I can't keep my thoughts straight with depression as my main man and anxiety on the side destruction on stand by , nonetheless the overpowering stress weight gain weight loss heavy bags under my eyes I'm a mess , it's certain buttons on me you can't press, mental issues is a real issue it needs more press , I'm not at home in my own mind I'm a guest , this is my truth yes I confess, my own mentality is bullying me however I'm no punk I just want to get rid of the old baggage , stand firm in my true touch base with my inner savage , grow where ever I'm lacking I'm not damaged I'm surviving , I'm not perfect yet I'm learning that none of this is deserving , my pain will serve a purpose and if I want to survive life I have to strive, praying this poetry frees my mind so I'm no longer held hostage to this mental suicide STATE OF MIND
