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EX-LOVER
Heart pounding out my chest, I’m heart broken, eyes pouring T-shirt soaking
I'm feeling low like I don’t know, it's too much, the pressures too much, the headaches too much, you was doing too much, my heart was bruising too much, I shut down so I was refusing too much, you was risking too much , we started losing our touch every connection based off lust , I wasn't getting enough ,you wasn't giving enough , I felt I was giving too much , I started calling your bluff , this was never about us! Now I’m paying the price for love! All jokes aside, tell me was it your pride? Tell me how you feeling inside? How many hoes you have on the side? I'm Reluctant ...I made you feel some type of way, you had a whole kid and you tucked it So *** it! Now you got secrets and I'm giving Vicky vibes , we went from No secrets No LIES , to P.I,'s too many skeletons to hide ,now I'm feeling spiteful so I got to slide , you was doing the most to *** with my pride, I was dying slowly inside , I was left to pay the price of loving the wrong man , trusting the wrong man, forgiveness seemed like endless limits!, Damn I was tripping, He caught me slipping , sometimes that's just how the goes , hop on the love train, where and when we stop only God knows, I don’t know who you are , I don’t even recognize myself , you was doing it for you, and I was doing it for us, now I'm just left with me , we got caught up in a few moments of lust ,than snap back to reality, It’s ironic how you was just ready to marry me , but you had more love & attention for Infidelities , So I took the L of giving you most of the best of me so much lost time like where's the rest of me , Sampling ingredients when I'm the whole recipe way too much I sacrificed now I'm left to pay the price of love ! It wasn’t all bad there could of been more good, I guess we both were just misunderstood ,and I understand sometimes you got to change plans , you folded when I needed you to be a man ! Now I've been dealt a bad hand, tired of the shuffles and scuffles, I miss the days we would both get in our duffle , getting money was never no trouble, where ever you lacked I put in the muscle , quick to silence all muffles, making love on the double, every night warm hugs and tight cuddles, day and night leaving you in puddles, it use to be so different with us ! How could you ever forfeit the trust, why gamble with our love? I won't apologize for busting my, for never judging your past , I won't apologize for getting you off your, giving you reasons to brag , you do me dirty how is that math? Help me make it make sense, because there are somethings I cannot grasp! I called timeout on all your games , *** the proposal I'm keeping the ring , we both know you didn’t mean a thing , you hurt me in the worst ways , now I'm just counting down the days, when I can just breath and my brain won't replay all of the memories we made, it's hard not to when I have to look into the eyes of the beautiful creations we made its impossible not to mentally press Play ! But for the record I loved you , but just for love I will not settle, this was never going to get no better , I'm no fool for you so I'm ok with loosing you, but I'm never ok with loosing me, choosing you made me a weaker me , left me too uncomfortable in vulnerability, and I don’t need a man to validate who I am nor the fact that I'm unstoppable, really all of this is a tragic comical! you propose just to cheat in a time I was weak , playing hide and seek like a creep , but I peeped , lose ya family over some sneaky links however I chilled rather than geek , pain shooting down my throat just to speak , I couldn't sleep for a week , my prayers were cries your promises were lies, you begged for a chance I gave it a try , imagine if I took aim at your pride? Leave you broken inside , tearing at my heart when you should have been rearranging my insides, hmmm this too shall pass now our love story is our past, I thought this would last forever ,you did me wrong when you knew I deserved better, thought I was a fool but I was way too clever, it's gone always be whatever, I know you still think on the last time we was together, I'm broken you played a game I was the token, I was pulling you was poking , it’s crazy how I think of you often ,even after putting my heart in a coffin, my mind constantly moving down memory lane jogging, I guess I'll never really understand its mind boggling we had a plan, we had a family, we had us , tell me when did we become never enough ? Or maybe was it too much? Either way the trade is rough ...last thing I just want to know if the love wasn’t real what kept you here for years, sincerely sealed lips broken hearted and dried tears ......EX Lover💔
