the stormy night proved to be a turbulent ride it felt like the wheels would leave the ground and the car would take wings and fly into the tide in the sky I was there through it all there for it all enthralled in the thought of it all nose diving crashing to the ground it wasn't all that razzmatazz but had to jazz it up to make it sound profound on the way down I was prettified had to close my eyes "God please don't let me die I know I told you how much I absolutely loathe this place many times I don't know why I'm begging you to stay on this plane" do I even know what I'm saying do I really know why I'm praying the thought of no more pain nothing to complain about still I don't want to be taken out the words keep coming out I still don't know what I'm talking bout I believe I have faith still it's hard not to doubt do I want in do I want out it's not easy to figure out got too may blessings to count more bridges to burn more lessons to learn standing in line still waiting for my turn than to take a turn for the worse I'm still in the trenches trying to break the genetic curse I scribe in verse digging holes covered in dirt on a 9:11 spurt who gone dive deep for me if I get hurt and go to sleep "nobody" is the word not a soul in the world gone burrow or plow land for me those I'm fighting for wouldn't go to war for me I'm aware of that still I go to bat until I hang up my hat "you heard that" from me it will be my final flight fingers crossed hoping like hell I'm on my last life if you decide to clip the wings on this bird