Moments after
when the tears have dried
And I have put aside my emotions
Setting them down in a nice glass jar in the center of the living room coffee table
Not forgetting where they are when I need to refer back to the
Old me
If I need to black out for a moment
And apologize profusely for stepping out of my inner self
It doesn’t happen too often
Being told
And knowing truly that my fuse line is longer than that one lane highway across the Nevada desert
I know me
As I grow older
steady mirroring the personality of my daddy
Patience level
swaying in the wind
needing a moment to dip my toe into the pool
yeah
I know how deep the damn water is
And so I find myself here
Alone with me
or
the soft
smooth touch of you
the tall glass of icy pineapple 1800 at my elbow
the sounds of Phyllis in my ear
have often kept me from being the lead topic of CNN
and the 6:00 primetime news
Al Sharpton
explaining that we all ain't like him
I need you
When nothing else can stop the translations of the thoughts I have
At this moment
Into actions I will not remember and surely regret
It is you
Who soothes me
Assures me that everything will be alright
When the last line is finished
The last word surrounded by affectionate
Understanding
Periods
Commas
And sometimes
Nothing at all
naked
I need you
Baby, I need you
Words…