some of those who had a hand in raising me let me down when I fell they didn't reach down to pick me up off the ground my scrapes bled and bled until they turned into scab I picked and picked them raw until I could no longer stomach the sight of the open wound then I decided to leave it alone let it breathe and heal on its own it didn't take long to leave a lasting mark of scorn worn like rips and tears in need of mending aches and pain to tend to due to those lacking the ability to impart TLC left me rent and scarred for life prioritizing self care and self compassion is a process more effective than a psycho.the.rapist violating my brain and end up worse off and in more pain now than before taking a sh** load of happy pills not to mention the godforsaken bill literally it's a mind f****** ordeal trauma is a multi million dollar industry physically emotionally mentally most disturbing idealistically it's done deliberately