The girl of my dreams better stay in my dreams
Cuz I'm tryna live life, and not stay in between
what's real and what isnt, turn this change into cream
My joy is disappearing like the words when they fade in the screen
at the end of the movie
Got no friends when I'm losing,
Try my best to keep moving, I find rest in this music
Yeah music is soothing, and these lyrics I'm choosing
help me escape from this place that I made
Hell's on the plate and satan's the maid
Fell on my face, but i say that I'm great
I say I'm ok, but i know that i aint
cuz I'm holding to the pain that i blame for my past
I mean I'm holding to the past that i blame for my pain
You see i cant think straight and i cant think fast
when im still in the dark sitting flat on my ass
Got no cash in my hands, i don't rap for the fans
I find hope in my words when they land on the pad
and I've grown from a sperm to a plant, now a man
Feel my soul as it burns into ashes of sand
Let it blow in the wind, feeling cold in my sin
but I'm closer to Him when I'm holding the pen
Yeah they laughed at my plans but i never payed notice
Cuz i got still got my fam, and i hope that they know this
I'll die for my little bro although i hardly say i love em'
I love you Angel, you'll always be my little brother
And I'm sorry for all the stupid iv ever told ya
When u were just a kid, i knew i should of held u closer
But whats done is done, i cant forget the oldest son
You held me in your arms before they made u hold a gun
Before the pipe, before the drugs, before the smoke n such
We're FINDING HOPE in love, forgetting that were BROKE AS FU**K
Please forgive me, i just had to open up.