I had a great auntie who took me to the circus every time it came to town she was infatuated with clowns she lived alone she had no spouse nor children of her own there was no place in her home where there wasn't a clown she even wore her makeup like a clown every time I see a clown it reminds me of how much she loved clowns and how much I loved her and how much she loved me I don't like clowns can't stand clowns clowns bother me their bothersome no one wants to be a clown be called a clown associate themselves with a clown because it's a clown painted smiles on sad faces then it dawned on me it was all there the whole time I was too young to see she was sad too how could she not be she had nobody the signs were every where she was lonely I wish she could hear me I'd tell her I love and miss her dearly