what happens when you pretend is that you become a pretender. Then what happens when you surrender? You allow the universe to work through you. You dont fight what is and work in abundance with what it should be.
You want freedom but you want to make sure you multiply it. Look into the dark abyss and become a part of it. You cant be made of the same material as the universe and fight its well. You were created in his image so make sure that is what reflects back at you when you look in the mirror.
Can I say it any clearer? Can I rant and rave any louder? The truth if you surrendered, this message is thumping in your ears.