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Confessions of a Crack Head

use to

I look into your eyes

and much to my surprise

I didn't see the Man that I'm use to

I Tried to gaze far past the rage

but the feelings that I felt I was not use to

let's not forget you're not the only one that hurts

through this whole rendevou I was used too

and now you're mad because your broad found out

boo hoo Ni99a I had a boo too

I mean I used to, before you

now remember when you used to hold me close

and promise me you'll never let go

In the same breath telling me you love me

but not wanting anyone else to know

I got so used to your lies, thinking you would change

like you would actually leave her for me

settling for less feeling comfortable

its a shame I got so use to the creep

Confessions of a Crack Head

I tried to Stop

But nothing works

Sometimes I need it so bad it hurts

Started with a Blunt

A Dutch and a Light

Then I popped a Pill

Sniffed a Line, Hit the Pipe

Troubles fade away

For that One split second

Damn near O'D twice

Would of thought I learn my Lesson

Lost my House, my Husband

And even my Kids

No longer sexually attractive

I fell in love with that glass D***

The emptiness I felt when I hit that pipe

Was Ironically enough

To take over my Whole life

So as I sit here with this knife gripped tight

I ask God to please forgive me

...

Life.....

They say Love Don't cost a thing

So try and explain why my heart is so broke

Face displays a constant smile

But my life is far from a joke

I've been through it all and back

With very little to nothing to show

Head stay high above the water

But self esteem at a ultimate low

I CRY BUT NO ONE SEES

I SCREAM BUT NO ONE HEARS

Painful memories buried deep

Out of fear that no one Cares

Born in this cold world Alone

Destined to Die the same

Been through this thing called Life before

Another Random Soul assigned a name

Now Can you honestly look me in my eyes

And Not see the Pain

Life damn near over

Before it actually ever began

Hurting from within

Want so bad to rewind time

But it will only restarts again

The past is always behind us

The Future will always remain a question

Right now is our most important Gift

That's why its ...

what should i do

daydreaming and I'm thinking of you

even though I'm not supposed to

stuck in a situation that I can get out

In way too deep without a doubt

what should I do

I'm so confused

I hate to be the bearer of bad news

Hate to hurt the 1 that's been there from the start

but can't fight the feeling of a half empty heart

what should I do

how could you want more

when the worlds been handed to you

Can't explain its something mental

better yet physical

and yet im asking you

what should I Do, do you even know

try so hard to fight the feelings

but like the Roots beneath the soil

they continue to grow

I lnow this cant be Right

but Wrong never felt s...

Is this a Dream?

It turns you on

you can't figure me out

you think you know

but you have much doubt

Eyes Cold as Ice

but yet Body Warm

Heart strong a leather

but yet still Torn

Mystery lies between my thighs

My sweet Nectar you long to taste

Wondering is my heart worth saving

or is it already to late

You hate that you Love me

But you love the fact that you can't hate

Is this really destiny

Could this actually be Faith

Could she be the one

That's the question in your head

Mentally f****** your mindmind

Got you fiening to get into bed

Body so right,P**** so tight

You would swear I'm Custom Made

Damn it felt so real

its no way she can be fake

Got you really considering

Donating your Last Name

And the Finger next to the pinky

There's a spot for my name....

Beep ....Beep.....Beep......Beep

DAMN....IS THIS A DREAM??????

unknown victory

Never Ever will I trust again

I thought that we were more than just friends

Dagger through my heart

Exiting the hole in my back

Never...ever thought you

would do me like that

So Nieve

Eyes wide shut

but I thought I could see

All the while, your playing the role

that you say was me

Like my Beanie said

"I could feel it in the air"

Damn its a shame cause I thought

you really cared

Blood Boiling

Adrenaline Rush

Every time I think

of how you betrayed my trust

In a trance

Hard to fake like, everything is alright

<...

Step into My World pt3

Come and take a step onto my world

take a walk through my life

there is very little light

so u better hold on tight

The other kids say I'm ugly

cause I dress so bummy

Mommy tries her hardest

but its still not enough money

Everyday is a constant fight

Burning candles at night

This month we had to choose

between food or the lights

The kids at school all laugh

because they say

my sneakers lean

To make it all worst

Even the teachers are mean

Every night I ask God why

I mean, I'm only just a kid

AND THIS IS THE LIFE

THAT I WAS BORN TO LIVE

Step into My World pt2

Come and take a step into my world

take a walk through my life

There is very little light

so please hold on very tight

Daddy won't stop

he won't go away

"Your my Favorite little girl"

is all that he can say

It started with simple hugs

nothing wrong with that

to not so daddy like touches

When I sat on his lap

Then eventually, late night visits

to my room he crept

A pat on the head

A slap on the back

Even sold me to his homie

for a dime bag of crack

Can't even cry about It

no more tears left within

Had I kept my secret

My little brother

Would have been my kid

AND THIS IS THE LIFE

THAT I AM FORCED TO LIVE

Step into My World

Come and take a step into my world

Take a walk through my life

There is very little light

so hold my hand tight

it's going to get rough

And even hard to see at times

filled with heart break, betrayal

and inconsistent Lies

Watch your step,It may get wet

that's a stream of my tears

Don't mind the little girl that's screaming

She's who guard my fears

and all the crying you hear

Lord forgive me

That's my unborn kids

DON'T KNOW HOW I SURVIVE

IN THIS LIFE THAT I LIVE

Woman Scorned

long nights of crying not knowing what to do

long nights of Spazin/wildin out over you

I can't believe all the s*** that you put me through

what am I to you

I thought I was your everything

House, cars ~ diamond engagement ring

that junk don't mean s***

how could it?

you gave it all up for that other b****

and now we broke up because of it

I really considered you my husband

my friend the that'll be there to the end

but you sin

you lie

how could you make me cry?

telling me you love me in front of a preacher

while staring me in my eyes

how could you deny

now look into your son's eyes

and tell him why mommy cry

stare at your daughter

and tell her is going to be alright

as a matter of fact

tell them both why you're not here every night

but enough about them because they're gonna be alright

as for you I can't even stand the sight

I...


		DallasCowgirl says: Floored. This piece is amazing, but the truth that lies underneath the surface is even more thought gripping and provoking.... Felt it.

Confessions of a Crack Head

use to

Confessions of a Crack Head

Life.....

what should i do

Is this a Dream?

unknown victory

Step into My World pt3

Step into My World pt2

Step into My World

Woman Scorned

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