Fell off
But I didn't hit the ground
Stood up
As something was trying to hold me down
Felt like contradictory
Had my mind in contradictory
Didn't no right from left
Head from toe
Me from everything else
My vision was getting blurry again
Where did I drop off at?
Where was I headed?
Who was my guide?
Was this me inside?
Should I put up a fight?
Was this new me right?
Was there even a right?
Questions had me up all night
What was going on with me?
Why couldn't I see...
Clearly?
So many questions
But it was like no one could hear me
Or
Maybe they just didn't care
Or they weren't aware
Of their surroundings
Or the hurt
The damage within my mind
The thoughts
The Feelings
That I was feeling
By choosing to keep the questions to myself
Knowing no one could help me answer them anyway
But
Why?
Why couldn't I get help?
How come I stumbled?
Why did I feel trapped?
Why did I close myself in with all these questions?
Leaving me guessing
And everyone else avoiding me
Testing
The person inside me
And how much I could contain
Myself
Wondering if the questions would ever get answered
Would I even be able to retain?
The information
The life lessons
The Answers
-Lyrically Aware