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My perfect mother
Sometimes I use to dream about my perfect mother.
Not the one who gave me life. The one I created how I like.
My perfect mother would brush my hair 100 times at night and sing songs by Billie Hoilday.
My mother wraps my hair around her fist and drags me from here to there.
My perfect mother gives me kisses on my head and tucks me into bed at night tells me to sleep thight.
My mother tells me go to sleep, be quite for I get my a** beat .
My perfect mother makes me feel safe.
My mother has resentment because my daddy left me on her to raise.
I dream of my perfect mother sometimes trying to escape a nightmare of shame. I dreamed of my pefect mother hoping she will come save the day. You only get one mother and I love mine regardless of pain, regardless of names, regardless if she dont love me the same. Im becoming a mother and Im afaird, what if she talks back and I have no restraint what if writes about a boy she like and I call her everything but her name. What if she tells me a boy held her down by her hands and forced himself inside and I tell her she should of stayed her fast asx away. What if I become my mother because my perfect mother never came. I hope she still loves me cause we only get one mother right? And they cant be replaced </3
