she walking through
the house like she licking on lolly pops turning everything she touch into a sticky situation
I'm trying to control concentration changing my mind to a different station making a effort to change obligation human frustration
night sweats like bedwetting losing energy like blood letting struggle to escape entrapment all I wanna do is to die happy trying to livie a life of integrity
sometimes my cares won't let me don't want grandma to come back and slap me I hear tapping it snaps me back into shape suddenly I sit up straight take my elbows off the table saying please and thank you doing the stuff I was taught to do regardless what I been through and what the world is going through I know what grandma knew
in the worst of times I l will be on my best behavior half the time it's the only way to shine