I once stood behind the screen looking outside now I'm behind a screen looking inside and for the first time in my life I don't want to be on TV it was only a childhood dream I fantasized at one time when the teacher gave me a star I stamped my door in shimmering gold what happens to unanswered prayers do they sit in a file marked spam or junk mail I wondered was I being penalized every time I didn't say "yes sir or yes ma'am" If Mary had a little lamb his feet were like bronze that part got me in a heap of trouble and a lot of hot water the apple didn't fall far from the tree but all the blame fell on me I was in therapy long before I went to therapy I was told there was no help for me the only time I ask for help is when I can't help myself I rarely ask for help from someone else once you crawl out of hole it's hard to explain where you been without someone trying to push you back in when I say way back when I mean you could buy a dollar worth with fifteen cent math wasn't a problem