after all the eulogies the time has come to release I can't let it go can't watch it float away holding on to a string of memories as my heart deflates only living on air left inside of me to breathe until it's time for me to leave I'll forever be full of grief bewildered wandering wilderness after losing the only best friend I ever had in this world the light of my life flickered then dimmed since that dark day it's been lonely evermore I shall be forever torn attempting to mend a tear that's sure to tear again crying never seems to end but as always sun will shine then again stars will fade into gray clouds and it rains again hurt turns back to pain again time rips more tears diapers replace underwear souls in rocking chairs fingers too cripple to thread a needle to patch holes to hide complete emptiness live long to die in a empty nest what is death to the left behind other than a state of mind to look forward to see who's hoped to be seen again sea or air somewhere out there in the deep blue as long as a part is missing I'll be here looking still holding this silver balloon as it pulls me closer to way out there