I had to stop doing what I was doing because I was doing what I always done I had to stop doing what I always done in order to gain a different outcome I had to stop pause hit the brakes make a u turn on the the way to my birthplace to force my way through doors that should've been open for me to come in, in the first place I had to stop wasting breath on those who only wanted to text I had to stop putting my heart into those who didn't have one for me I had to stop apologizing to those who will never forgive me l had to stop praying for those who sent me curses in return I had to stop showing up on the scene to see those who never seen me I had to stop hurting myself then blaming others for hurting me when I put myself in the position to be hurting I had to stop trying to bring about a change in someone else's life and neglecting to bring about a change in mine I had to stop I had to pause I had to hit the brakes I had to step back and look at it all I had to see myself through the fog I had to talk to myself I had to question my thoughts look deep inside question my heart and sincerely answer back I had to be here in the presence I had to put horded old tattered rags in the trash strike a match and burn em to ash I had to cutoff old feelings to grow new ones back I had to stop look be silent and listen to a change is gone come I had to stop and release the pressure poke holes in the lies to breathe the truth I had to stop to take time to grieve I had to face reality about things I refused to believe I had to come to the light face my shadow in a full contact combat cage match against my dark side for playing both sides it didn't happen overnight I dedicated decades of my life to get right I had to stop myself from commiting suicide and contemplating homicide I had to throw in the cape to save myself I had to stop doing what I couldn't stop figure it out find a solution a way out of my own chamber of madness I had to stop to exccept the fact if there's no one to blame it's my fault for doing the same things and suffering the same results I had to stop
The Immortal Wize
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Breadcrumbs2021 says: A reflective moment on the course of life to maintain sanity when confronted with doubt. Thank You for the poem. |
OTHER POEMS WRITTEN BY The Immortal Wize
Here We Go Againthe water is getting deeper waves are getting higher earth is on a warpath wind is calm for now I hear there will be fire next time but what about this time if you were given a chance for one last dance would you take it or stand with your back against the wall watching everyone else have a ball while Babylon fall the last hurrah then "Hip Hip Hurray" do not fear be not afraid at the close of the day night gone fall on us all while waiting for the electricity to come back on making a promise is not the same as making a point the drift been gotten prior to what's been done, before is a current past event  |
Spirals Of Smokebe informed to get in formation currently the new currency is information be not uninformed action is required activate desire it ain't over until the unsung sing It's Done do not retire there will always be fire to start new beginnings it doesn't matter who's winning we will win win and win again it is written |
All Pointswhen you stuck you believe in something you can't get out of when you blocked you believe you can't get ahead because something is in the way when you flow you believe you unstoppable when you open you believe you walking around without clothes when you can't let go you believe you can't let go what we believe got us under control when you believe you can fly levitation is no longer impossible to achieve |
No Two Ways About Itthere's a old say that goes you have to laugh to keep from crying I get it I'm laughing but not cause I want to cry for any particular reason you know that idiom it never fails it means it happens every time once we recognize we're out of our league it's wise to pursue a league of our own I'm smiling I have something to smile about that don't have nothing to do with what's going on in the world something I can't do nothing about on that note "Uh Oh" is an expression of alarm dismay and means it's too late "it's about to go down" |
Enthrall (Repost)got these broken wings I don't know why I never could fly I never wished for such a thing so many others dream so many others sing I wish and I wish on other things like we all, wakeup at the same time How bout that? we can all celebrate you...know have a good time fun, without, someone getting beside themselves pulling out a gun killing another mothers son or someone's baby girl, we'll just sit around talking about what we're going to do with all the wealth sadly the mule has died of natural causes but, there's plenty of acres and homes to be had now if I could just, find that genie, I got a few more to settle the score |
It Gets Messywaiting for something I want hope and wish to happen is like watching a mouse hole real close while holding a bat |
On The Heels Of The Suna Butterfly abandons her egg her offspring is left behind without a mother to cling to some would think doomed from the start giving into our circumstance is refusal to change everyone gets a chance a Caterpillar cannot transform into a Butterfly if it die before its/it's time the light is often taken off the Caterpillar and shown on the Butterfly the mother of a Caterpillar is a Butterfly she gives birth to the one who is destined to transform she's the one who gives birth to change the Caterpillar is one who comes out the dark into the light where one come from does not determine where one will end up |
The Ripple (Repost)trying hard is not trying hard enough enough we have to put faith in the sun that it will shine again even when the sky is gray everything around us falls apart as long as our heart is beating we're not defeated nor are we destroyed something goes wrong we must be strong it won't be long hold on here we go back to the dome in some form or another if you're with someone then you got each other if we build our foundation strong enough to float how can we go under let lightening strike we're made of thunder take a sip from the power within put the cup down raise the pen we write to win this is a conquest not a contest a inkwell of consciousness |
Nov 5my distaste for voting season is people act like their talking to children telling them don't forget to brush their teeth asking them did they wash their hands telling them what they should do what they need to do what they have to do people act like they get paid to remind grown folk to vote who's going to know you did if they didn't see you do it |
Hush It Up (Repost)m whispering quietly~~~ trying not to waken the beast taking away, what happiness we saved, my black...ness is all I have, you might laugh but it's enough for me wouldn't want to be any other nationality, created most hated so proud of the people though we may be fading in a fleeting moment victims of unlawful and illegal occultic underhanded dealings the truths that are being revealed has reached out and killed many in hidden colors there are some who read the fine print, those who do not fear the number 13 know the underlined truth in the Amendment though I may shake a bit like an aftershock after a California earth quake trembles, my hands are steady my finger are not to nimble to quietly tap the tree, give my people dap empowering them to empower others this is how we can will and still glean |