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A Piece of Me Died

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Ma 

You was in my dreams last night 

I’m not gone lie

Shi/ was getting blurry 

Wasn’t sure if I was gone be aiight

 

Shi/ was like a movie

I wake up in disbelief 

Most days

Not knowing how to feel

An open wound that won’t heal

Cancer that you can’t see or feel

 

Ma

Tell me one mo time everything’s gone be aiight

My world changed from the moment I saw you and watched you all night 

 

Ma if you in there

I need you to show me a sign

But don’t overwork yourself 

We still have time

 

Meanwhile the doctor is on the other side of the glass

Speaking to the nurses

As they prepare for you to pass

 

Family members coming to see you

Through a tube they feed you

Sister braiding your hair

 

Gospel music playing 

All while you stair

 

In a daze

Ma please don’t say a word

Use your face

Facial expressions 

Blink if you can hear me

Grip my hand if your there

Its taking everything in me to fight back tears as we both just stair

 

At each other

Family members hopeful

Everybody asking me questions 

I see their mouths moving 

All the while I’m asking God for this 1 blessing 

 

Trying to be sane 

In real time

Fuc/

 

I got a lot on my mind

But the calls keep coming

The thoughts still runnin

Reality just humming 

 

Tests not looking good

Me- 

Retake them

Knowing the facts but trying to by time

Nurse idgaf if they don’t want to

Make ‘em

 

Donors calling my phone

Aunties from outta the state are at your home

Siblings are lying to themselves 

But I get it

 

Everyday that just pass

I’m dreading the doctors call from the last

Cause time wasn’t on our side but time is all we had

 

As the days drew near

To me 

It was clear

 

I started to see people cry that I never had

Thinking dam it’s getting bad

I noticed everyone would look at me

And apologize 

All while looking me in my eyes

I couldn’t crack 

I held it together 

I was getting shi/ from different angles 

All while preparing for your demise 

Tears in the back of my eyes

 

Ma 

The shi/ don’t feel real

What’s me without you

I’m questioning that still

 

I feel lost

Not really caring about much these days

No matter the cost

 

I hope I made you proud

I pray that you in heaven 

I held off as long as I could 

I even broke protocol according to the doctors schedule 

 

I didn’t want you to live the rest of your life in pain

According to the test results 

You’d never be the same

You never be able to walk

Let along talk

You regaining consciousness was like the odds of winning the lottery

Severe brain damage 

After that, it wasn’t a second thought

 

I was there until the end

By your bed I was near

 

Knowing my life shortly would never be the same

In those last moments 

I’d never forget

The nurse came in and stated

The time is coming

I stood there 

Just watching you

Trying not to look

And stay strong for the fam

Dam

 

I witnessed you take your last breath

My God what a scene 

I had nothing left

 

Ma rest well 

Just know that I miss you

Please wait for me in heave with a box of tissue

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mlowe5 says:

A very touching pen that re-reflected keloid memories. Just look at that keloid navel and know that Ma is always there with you in mind, soul, spirit, and body. Great write. Thanks for the share. ONE. Peace and Love.

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