The rule is death before dishonor but what do you do if the honor has already been gone for far too long. You have to go back and find it and in the middle of finding it, you lose yourself. That is the roughness of the game and I think that is what also makes it interesting.
You have to be a student of understanding what you want and to keep going after it. That is the consistent message that I keep getting, that I need to know what I want and to keep going after it.
The one thing I should not do is dishonor myself so the mission is the same as it has always been, win.