I was being greedy, I wanted everything and I armed myself to the teeth. I ran in shooting, left no one standing in the room. When I saw no one, I mean no one because that includes me. I was sitting in the corner in shock and awe of what just transpired.
I was tired of it all.
The bull, I wanted more and I deserved more but I deserved what the Lord has provided for me. Thats the balance of it all. You want it so bad but you have to be willing to do the things you need to do to make it happen.
It is just an exercise in pure greed.