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I had to remind myself that you can still be told you’re loved and be hurt at the same time
I had to remind myself that you can be looked in the eye and still be told a lie
I had to remind myself the body rejects what doesn’t belongs to you
Whole time I’m blocking all the reds flags I see in you
Sweet text and I appreciate you
But when I call all I get is…your call has been forwarded to a voicemail that has not been set up yet.
No return text, just left wondering where you been at? When will I get time with you next?
Damn she must really got you good…
Cause I been sitting in the same thoughts and wonders
Does he care?
Why?
What did i do?
Because the parts of me I’ve given you can’t compare to the temporary satisfaction she’s giving you!
Yet, you continue to feed me excuses
I just accept them and hope it’s not true
What I’m feeling
The things I’m thinking
It’s just an illusion
I will come to my senses and realize I was just overthinking
That you wouldn’t hurt me
You wouldn’t betray me in that way
I want to stop dreaming that you’re leaving
Wake me up from this nightmare of you walking away
As if I never exist to you
Can’t you see your family misses you?
But I can’t wake up
I was never sleeping
Just drowning in a sea of denial
Holding on to knives of rejection
Knowing if I let go the pain will subside
But the thought of letting you go
Is what’s killing me inside….
