Intensed Pain

Intensed Pain

Excruciating!!!!

Thats all that my body feels right now.

My mind can't tell it any different;

and my heart doesn't exsist.

Excruciating!!!!!

The pain thats felt when youre walking on hot coal,

laying on pins and needles,

shot a million times.

Excruciating!!!!

Is the intensed pain of being alone,

unloved, missing a love one,

BURNING IN HELL!!!!

Excruicating Pain....!!!

turning tears into anger,

twisting youre mind to become devious,

turning love into hatred, wanting to kill!!!

Excruciating!!!

Is all that i feel right now,

no matter how bad i want my mind to redirect the thought of ONLY FEELING PAIN!

A pain thats so intensed to where noone wouldnt wish it on their worst enemy.

EXCRUCIATING!!! EXCRUCIATING!!! EXCRUCIATING!!!

The feeling of pain that i feel right now,

Sitting..

Sitting here, Just wondering where the f*** did I go wrong? How did I end up this way? When did I start allowing myself to play?

   Sitting here, Just thinking how can I change? What if I just want to be the same? When did the sunshine become just rain?

 Sitting here, Just wondering which path did I take? Which road and and which forest  I not break? Who even led me on this path? Why did I even follow? Is there any reason that I feel like I shouldn't be here tomorrow?

 Sitting here, Just thinking what if I go this way? What if I turn around? Would I be able to go back to stay? Sitting here wondering thinking trying to figure this to s*** out. What if I just sit down and scream but don't shout? What if I spin around , what if I fall to the ground?

 What if I just say f*** the world and don&...