Sometimes I write these poems, sometimes I write them for the express purpose and title them romantic poems for her to make her cry. I get overly expressive with them and talk about things that I would not normally talk about. I am gifted at these words and only if I could be gifted in showing the world who I truly am.
I am always hiding behind all of this trauma and trying to fight my way through it but I still see her in eyes and heart. I am in pain when I think about here because there were so many things I could have done to keep her. So the answer is that I really did make her cry. In some ways, the way that I would like and in others the way I should never have.
I felt like I was shaping a destiny with her and I could see her essence in everything. i just could not see past all of my pain and I think that is what hurt her the most. I really didnt want to make her cry, it was a part of our destiny to be more than we thought we could be. She was a friend to me and in many ways more than that. I used to look forward to seeing her and I always thought I would start and end the day with her in my eyes reflection.
This was not a love that was meant to be and I wanted it more than anything. I think that is the reason I could not have her.