A dream lost

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first love

My heart bleeds love, was blood

But I've been drained

Somehow I connected with the wrong leaches

Then came pain-

-less it was because I couldn't t feel it

The realist people you'd meet

Family, killas

So all you have is her

And the connection- is perfection

Couldn't have came at a better time

With things ***ing  me up in the mind

She keeps me sane

Smiling, happy

And in my lane

The days of my life 

I couldn't t imagine the next one could get any better

When she smiles 

Whether 

Its night

She bright-

-tens up the room she's s in

And I'm just glad to be in it

Glad that she's s apart of my life

I feel as if I'm m winning

Instead of crying

I go to sleep grinning

Knowing that she'll ll lay down next to me 

Within the matter of minutes 

She is my relief

The air that I breathe

But one morning

I felt an unfamiliar pain

My dream was cut short 

Something changed

What 

Was it

My baby was not lying next to me

My heart is locked and she is the only one that has the key

What's s going on in my mind? 

I asked myself 

But there was no one around for help

That pretty smile was no longer there

She made life so easy

And I didn't t have a care-

-in the world

But now it's s all crumbling down

Every day is a question mark

And I keep hearing sounds

Confused 

Weak

And used 

With not one thought of what to do

At one time the sky was blue

But now it's s always night

I'm m so frightened

That I'd take my own life with in the strike of 

Lighten

How could she leave me?

She knew what I was up against

To me this all didn't make any sense

So I finally gave up 

On what happened on that day

That night

She left me 

My soon to be wife

I made sure I prepared everything

I put the bullets in the chamber

And whipped the barrel clean

I folded her clothes 

And smelled her jeans

Her perfume, her sent 

Brung back sooo much remembrance

And reaffirmed what I was about to do

Because life is not life without you...

WAIT!

It was too late

Before I pulled the trigger I saw her for the last time

Her beautiful face

My eyes rolled in the back of my head

She screamed, Wait, What have you done

My hand feel and everything went black

I guess my mind was playing tricks on me

The devil finally won.