Here’s my confession
I’m not waiting on good intentions
Those are IOU’s
I lack the patience for extensions
Too serious for concessions
Let’s get to the grit
I had a muffin this morning
I’m supposed to be on a diet
Stopped using profanity in 2019
I recently started swearing again
Told my sister yesterday
It feels like I’m regressing
She laughed and reassured me
I’m moving in the right direction
Little does she know
There’s skeletons behind
Closed doors
I confess
I haven’t cheated on my best
Used to lurk in secret
Late nights on the creep
Until I met the woman of my dreams
Wait, this gets deep
I was dedicated to meditating daily
Not sure why I stopped
Guess God stepped in
When he speaks
Everything falls
Let me just say
I’m not as bad as I seem
At 25 I got clean
Not an addict
Unless I count my addiction
To the partying
Recently lost my childhood friend
To fentanyl
It doesn’t sound real
When I say it
I forgot
This is just the written
Until I speak it into existence
I confess
That I push aside the thought of regret
My mom taught me better
I admit
I’m more comfortable
With being upset
Lost time when I tried
To forget it
Then it returned full circle
Like double digits
Mourning comes everyday
At morning
My tears clear my eyes
The way the rain splits the clouds
Resilience is a gift
I’ll never throw in the towel
I confess
It’s not as easy as it seems
I’m cut from an unbreakable cloth
There’s no tearing at the seams
I confess
I feel fat in these jeans
Don’t need a man to tell me
Everyday I remind myself
Today’s a new beginning
No wonder I try ketogenic
Just to be photogenic
Is it clear
I’m a woman
Of course I have fears
Then there’s the ugly truth
We all want acceptance
A sweet spot that lessens
The everyday thought of
Problems big and small
Every word is a lesson
Take this for what it is
Either light hearted
Or prophetic
Written By:
Dez Sevena