I’ve become so numb/
Dumb/
To reality/
Life just flying by/
A blur/
Not knowing when one thing ends and another starts up/
I was born/
Then grown/
With just a hiccup/
Over a quarter of a century/
And all I have is constant issues centering me/
Attempting to hinder me/
Sometimes they win a round or two/
Through and through/
But in the end I am victorious/
Glorious/
But still/ I’ve become so numb/
Maybe that’s how I win/
Because its become harder to hurt me/
Harder to affect me Harder for me to care/
Harder for me to be there/
In the same room with anything that matters/
Emotions I scatter/
Accidentally/
On purpose/
Emotions to me/
Is synonymous with curses/
The worst ish/
That just flourish/
And not in a good way/
Swimming in an emotionless bay/
And I’ve become so numb/
And surrendered/
Emotionally succumb Over it/
Everything/ Drained/
Strained/ Detained/
In my own mind/
Dismissed/
Faceless/
By choice/
On accident/
And it’s adequate/
I’m numb/