I am trying to figure out how I was getting out of something when I was never really in it. I was on the outside looking in and the only thing I could control is the steps that take, the moves that I make and just my overall demeanor.
My attitude switch was set to positive even when it seemed like the world was crumbling around me. I think I stood the test of time because I was standing on principles and that platform is not shakeable. I met God, lost sight of him and out of the wilderness I can feel myself reuniting with him.
I was an exercise in grace to be in his presence. It felt like I wasnt even looking forward to it. Like I was there and not paying attention to my surroundings. I blacked out for a second, almost 3 decades to be exact.
I was afraid and at the same time not afraid. When I could not run, I walked, and when I could not walk, I crawled. And when I could not crawl, I waited. In that silence is when I knew I found him.