moments after when the tears have dried
and I have put aside my emotions
setting them down in a nice glass jar in the center of the living room coffee table
not forgetting where they are when I need to refer back to the old me
and if I need to black out for a moment
apologizing profusely for stepping out of my inner self
remember
it don’t happen too often
often told and knowing truly that my fuse line is longer than that one lane highway across the Nevada desert
I know me
as I grow older
steady mirroring the personality of my daddy
patience level swaying in the wind
needing a moment to dip my toe into the pool
yeah
I know how deep the damn water is
and so I find myself here
alone with me
or
the soft
smooth touch of you
a tall glass of icy pineapple 1800 at my elbow
the sounds of Phyllis Hyman in my ear
has often kept me from being the lead topic of primetime CNN
and the 6:00 Eyewitness news
Al Sharpton explaining that
we all ain't like him
I need you
when nothing else can stop the translations of thoughts
at this moment
into actions I will not remember and surely regret
it is you who soothes me
assures me that everything will be alright when the last line is finished
the last word
surrounded by affectionate
understanding
periods
commas
and sometimes
nothing at all
naked and unafraid
I need you
baby
I need you
words
poetry
my salvation
hallelujah