I keep throwing rocks from the glass house. I still havent learned my lesson yet. I dont think my ego is strong enough to make it to the end of that journey. That requires faith and I have been exposed to too many things that fell outside the word of God. I was in a spiral of my own design and intertwined in that endeavor was my ego. I was giving it too much room to breathe and I should have just choked it out.
Left it gasping for air or whatever it was holding on to. I was a willing participant in my own demise and at once I could win if I could just close my eyes.