The Choices I Made

O.D.E TO LIFE

 I wouldnt b here

life gives me energy to breath

sleep 

and 

eat 

 im suprise  im still 

here 

through my sarrow n 

i hope GOD let me see 

TOMORROW 

Unloved

 Love is something that i never had

bunble up all my feellings that inside 

learned how to hold it in because that made me mad 

didnt really care cuss tht part of me died 

uncontrol emotions going everywhere going  wild 

nobody really showed me that they cared 

lord knows thats nt my fuccing style 

it took everything that i ever  shared 

never let nobody see the real me 

bt do afraid to smile 

they jus know of me and who im trying to be 

bt love goes everywhere all around and ppl b happy 

bt when i think abt it its just 

CRAPPPYY

The Choices I Made

The choices i made yhu cnt imagine

the life i live is unbelievable

all i was doing is mapping it 

hoping that it was erasable

my future is so different from my past 

and my education i chose poorly  

thinknig that my past was a life time blast 

that was then n this is now 

i see more things clearly 

my family is the defintion of me 

my poerty is my dairy 

and everything i soon  to be 

as long as i have the man upstairs i dnt have any worries

the sacierfice i made with my UNBORN

yhu cnt imagine how my heart was torn 

if i tell my first love wht i have done its nt gonna be the same 

and Yes im too Blame

now hes outta my life 

knowing that i needed him to heal me and make everything alright

thinking over n over again knowing i didnt  hurt him

bt yet he stil...

Tired of yo bull

 im getting tired of yo lies

all the bull yhu hide 

you not answering yo phone time after times

we cant never agree we jus argue 

then i ask myself y in the hell im still wit yhu

yhu cnt never get it right 

and ill b glad when your out of my seight 

this anit buger king yhu cnt have it yo way 

n now that i wanna leave 

yhu on yo knees begging me to stay  

*** yhu 

i anit got time for yhu

all the games yhu played 

yhu need to get out my way

becasue yhu a dead beat 

yhu cnt even afford nothing to eat 

yhu pissing me the *** off 

yhu dnt fuccing listen 

bt trust me yhu  gonna miss my kisses 

yhu better b lucky tht im nt a cop n havent read yo rights

cuss all yhu wanna do is show off  n front of yo boys

thinknig tht your tight bt yhu...

it anit

 it anit easy being me if yhu jus knew abt my history i have alot on my plate trying over n over to fix all of my mistakes bt it seem like i cant im doing all that i can bt i think its time to leave it in God's hand cuss i kno he always have a plann for me so imma just let me be and wait for him bt the devil is trying his hardest to pull me into his skin i wont never go that roubt cuss i know which way i wanna go and no matter what i will not and i repeat will not sale my soul. i have a bright future in front of me all i gotta do is trust n belive and dont look back at my past through all my flaws and all 

Peer Pressure

 The preesure is deep 

its taking over my body and i cant sleep 

its really ***ing unbelieveable living in this cold world 

peered pressure into doing things 

to control my feelings 

im in a cage trying to get out

thinking i know whats life is all about

making money the fast way 

into it to deep my mom didnt want me to stay

now im out on my own 

thinking im grown 

i have to much on my hands 

and God knows that im doing all that i can 

life is a struggle 

jumping over obsticles but im jus falling into puddles 

my sister sugguest that i needed to go to college 

to expand my education and gain more knowledge

my life is borning and it sucks 

n my mind i cant move forwars because im ***ing stuck 

pressured to have sex at a young age 

afterword...

Your Words Not Mines

 you said tht yhu wanted to settle down bt yet yhu was never around you would send me flowers and tell me tht noone can take your place bt all yhu did was give me alot of space when i needed you the most yhu wasnt there n lord knows tht tht wasnt even fair yhu was gone and out of seight wishing yhu would call me so i can hear yhu say goodnight and hear you say i love yhu and your so glad that im your my boo . i held it down for yhu and when you got out home is where you said that yhu wanna b to start a family and do right n never let yhu cry alone at night . thts wht he told me after doing wrong for so long idk wht to believe anymore i told yhu tht i wish tht things were like before

Never

 you never got the chance to figure me out 

now im done without a doubt 

not looking back at my past 

and trust me boy your not my last 

i put that on my momma 

*** you and all the drama

 i gotta start frest to get over you 

and all the things we been through 

all  the things you told me i thought that they  were true 

through your lies and ablies i would have never knew 

you fooled me but that's alright imma let you be

because im stronger then that and thats a fact 

so im not gonna stress or snapp

its fuuny how you used to say you had my back 

but yet you start an aguement and stroms off like a brat

saying that im sneeking around jus like a black cats 

throught the dark streets at night 

you tried to play me but that alright 

because whats done in t...

Broken Heart

  you thought you broke my heart 

but i saw your game from the start 

i saw how you played it too

so laugh you ***ing  player  

the joke is on you 

its you that i blame 

for causing this pain 

for taking my voice

i need you to stop 

like a tired o colck 

before my body drops

and my mind pops 

sitting here going crazy  in the house

when im suppose to b your lady 

now im on the phone boy dont make me 

check out what i can do 

have yostuck like glue 

now you telling me that you want another chance 

but this right here anit no high school dance 

heres a cake but wait 

let me ice it 

dice it 

give a peice to every  who would like  this 

flip yojust like a sidekick 

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