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She told me she was in love
Oh how beautiful she was
But little did she know
I could never love her
I spoke those words
Simply three letters
To me they had no meaning
But that's s what held us together
Next came feeling
That I did have
But the sex came so quick
I knew we wouldn't last
And to my surprise
A baby boy we'd have
The change in her dimension
In her smile
And in her intentions
Blew me away
But where could I go
I had to stay
I started slowly putting things together
Eventually I made up her character
It was a piece of Art
Something I couldn't fathom,
Unbearable
Got put through some things
That even God didn't foresee
It wasn't for me to understand
So I sat behind the desk
Hand on my head
And daydreamed as I rest
CPR they had monitors to my chest
To bring me back alive
My son was the last image
I saw when I died
For 10 minutes
They say my heart was suspended
I was in limbo
Building buildings and mansions
For me and my son to play in
Rooms so big we can just live,
Stay in
No reason for you to go out
Truthfully I don't want you to leave this house
I'm afraid
Of the thought of you leaving my sight
I know they're coming to get you
And I'm gone try with all my might
Out of desperation
After hearing the door kicked in
I grabbed the 9 without hesitation
I been here before thinking
What I would do if it ever came to this,
Drinking
But the shi/ happened so fast
Next thing I know I have my son by the throat
And the barrel to his head,
I'm blinking
Come one more step and he's dead
Daddy what are you doing? He said
Son everything is going to be alright once they leave
Then things can go back to the way they were
You know us on the same team
Playing around like father and son is suppose to be
I'm trying to hold my composure
Cause tears is rollin down my son's cheek
While 10 guns are pointing at me
I saw his mother
She was at the center of it all
I tried to reason with her,
You know, Plead
But she was only in the business of hurting me
Awwww YES
My son
The key
The one and only masterpiece
To my life
He is my heart beat
Ok ok okay.
Listern just put your guns down
There's the door
I promise to return my son
I just need more,
More
Time
You don't understand
Just a couple of more hours
Y'all came early
This wasn't in the plans
Without a sound his mom raised her hand
And said something that I couldn't quite make out
At the same time I'm thinking of another way out
Her hand was on the trigger
My heart
My son
I said in my mind staring down the barrel of her gun
I closed my eyes
Then,
Everything stopped
Slow motion
I heard the words sorry
Followed by a shot
I know things got bad but Dam/
Blood covered my hands
I didn't hear my son's voice
His cry and heart beat stopped
My lil mans was gone
As I watched his head drop
In my arms
The reason of my existence
Was no longer at my assistance
As I fumble in my mind
Millions of thoughts
She was so obsessed with hurting me
That she lost touch of reality
BEEP, BEEP, BEEP
As I woke up from my alarm
I Got ready for work
Gun on my hip, check
I was armed
I closed the doors and cut off the lights
To an empty house
I put up the toys
But there's no spouse
There's no child
But that doesn't mean I lose hope
I pray everyday
Just like the night before
I open my son's door and let him know
Daddy will be back, Daddy has to go to work
This keeps me mentally stable
So I don't go berserk
My mom watches me all the time
She say's little but I can tell she's concerned
Before I leave out the door
Mom you were right
Never again
Trust me
LESSON LEARNED
