Schizophrenia

Say Yes

 I think I am in love because I think about him when I should be working;

And I crave his sweetness when I should just relax in mine;

I gave my all straight from the gate; and I am willing to share whats on my plate

Loosing is not an option.........;our team was designed to win;

I wanna tell him I love him over and over again!

I wanna provide the place where he feels most safe

Give him a vision far greater than his past;show him some things were designed to last

Some women are not selfish and has his best intrest from the start

I will make him comfortable and guard his heart!I won't give up on him when he gives up himself

I gotta show him all women are not looking for weath!

Loving him came natural, early I say,but the day I met him was a beautiful day!

I learn from him; and look forward to tomorrow;I gotta clean out his closet and throw away the sorrow

She started this sh*t ...

PASS/PAST

You killed him we know it

But nobody really saw it

That was your ticket so you used it

Don't like hoodies; how does it fit

Cause you gone need one; for the rest of your life, won't be no fun

Living like us, you gone hate it, that you can trust

This skin is thick, and hated and quickly unforgetably violated;

time and time again by dudes like yourself Mr. Zimmerman,

yes, I said Mr., cause most of us was raised right; and the ones you think wasn't, only put up a fight

because of cats like you, but your not a few, your the majority, so it's hard to see;

how we live our lives in the skin you love to hate;

who would of thought that old George's fate was to wear a hoodie to escape, the anger and the hate

of the beast you pretended we are; in my opinion you went too far

for no reason, now it's your season, to be fearful for your life

and always wonder if you'll l...

Feelings

 If only you weren't there you could be here

And only if she didn't than I could

And only if she wouldn't then you would

And only if i could stop I should

If only it wasn't then we could

Only if you were him, we would

Wish it upon  a star I should

Happy

 The love is so pure I can feel it in my soul

Just next to God it continues to make me whole

I love you in a different space

Our love is a different case; it takes me to a different place

One of a kind; your love, undeniably all mine

Dedicated, up lifted, and held close to my heart ;I knew it was special from the very start

King is what I call you; cause you rule our universe

Making me feel like the queen I am and always putting my heart first

The seconds we spend together are more then the best

Our past heart breaks and baggage, well that's just a test

God gives you no more then what you can bare.

One wish, upon a star, sliding down a rainbow, I wish I was there

Schizophrenia

 Two voices one mouth; two thoughts one head,

courting two personalities; leaves your true self dead

Going is coming and mental health always at stake;you always the one screaming you a real dude never fake

you hate the authority and blame them for your un-success;

you wouldn't know hard work in your path; and never been challenged to do your best

She was your gift and your curse;too bad she is the only one left

you are so sick in your mind that you will always fail the test

you don't understand purpose and Gods will here on earth

Don't for one second believe it ain't a purpose for your birth

you seek understanding in the things that are meant to be empty

Free will is just that; and you say in vein "don't tempt me"

The dare is to self distruct; starting first with your mind

thats why hip hop has turned into promoting drugs and crime

you say you are your own man, but l...

FEAR

 Love is my down fall because I do it my way;

when I know to be safe I should kneel down and pray

I find myself doing it at the end of the madness;

when I am left with heart ache, pain, and sadness

This time Daddy I ask you to be; the reason I immediately drop down to one knee

and trust your judgment; for each child you know; what it takes for he or she to grow

In the Spirit that is, thats why it comes third;

to help us understand the Power in your Word.

Daddy you gave me the rules and what I should do,;but I sometimes behave like I have no clue

You gave me yourself and even your son; your Word I most stand on to feel I have won.

My choices are my own poison, free will you call it;

yet you still are in control thats why I haven't quit

Prayer without ceasing is a must; I love you don't get mad at me and fuss

You just allow my testimony to keep growing in size;

I kno...

Will b done

 I knew it was over, just wasn't sure why, maybe cause the smiles are gone and I am living a lie.

It's not all good in fact I hate this place too much

I just want a wet kiss and maybe a warm touch

Flowers are my favorite,  but the hand written card is the best

If you came back for me, than it was worth knowing all the rest

Years of practice and hours of pain, was worth every moment, if soon your heart will be to gain

I can only tell my story if I have one to tell

This story seems long, but really it's not, it's about a man who loved a girl, no matter what, couldn't stop

Woman after woman, your character was shaped not knowing your first love would be your undeniable fate.

God has a sense of humor and this is why..this is just a simple story of how a girl met her guy.

Sadly Whatever

Pain because I love you

Fear to loose it all

Happy when you need it

Sad when I don't get it

Peaceful when we are talking

Disturbed when I see her

Fought until the end

Stood for what I believed

Walked away for what I deserved!!!

Conversation Confusion

You say we building; I say we bullshi*ing

You say when the time is right; Sh*t; I say right now

You say you feeling me; I say I got you

I say you scared; you say you cautious

I say let's go out; you say we will

I say let's talk; you say maybe later

I give you a hug; you give me a kiss

I just wanna fu*k; you say you want more

I wanna touch you'r body; and you wanna admire mine

I wanna turn you out; you wanna read my sh*t

I wanna give you brain; you wanna explore mine

I wanna bump and grind; you wanna hold hands

I wanna touch it; but access' not granted

I wanna have fun; you wanna dig deep

I wanna lay up; you just wanna chill

I want you all in it; you just wanna know it's real!!!

Confusion

Uncertain

Saying No is like saying Yes

Your not honest; exerting stress on top of stress

My mind you captured with your assertive support

Girl lost in the American Dream; wanting so hard not giving it clear thought

Your hands, your lips, your sur name I'am after

Remembering the days we shared dreams and laughter

Beauty in my eyes means us forever; we kicking down walls,

thinking it through,

being cleaver!

Living off our land, country side, nice rides

We don't live there no more,

We made our point

We never run; we take strides!!! The American Dream