What do I fear? Getting on the right track, only to be derailed by the same things that caused me to once fail, I tell myself that confidence would help, but I fear I'll give my all until there's no more left to give, I fear that I could die never knowing what it truly is to live, that ill never learn to forget, that I'll never learn to forgive, that ill never see clear behind all of these tears, they say find a happy place, but right now I couldn't tell you where that is, I fear that my fears will hinder my progression, make me so afraid to move on ill stay stuck in this depression, That I'll never rise because of this self driven oppression, but those are just fears, things that seem real but in reality are not here, just overly exaggerated expectations, that prey on your mind with weapons of devastation, I feel fear can be conquered through prayers and meditation, I just need to find separation between what's real and what's my imagination......
Just_zeek
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Imagination_733 says: This is deep. It emulates emotion. |
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