Rainbow flags trace city streets
I walk by
My sneakers pounding the concrete.
I admit,
It’s nice to smell equality in the air…
But it’s not bright colors that make it fair.
My mind shifts back into thought….
Reminiscing of all the times I’ve fought
To keep who I am a secret.
Brushing shoulders as I pass
Feels like being back in my neighborhood
But the feeling won’t last.
I stare straight ahead,
Admiring my path.
Hoping a familiar face will appear.
Instead,
A man holds a sign that reads:
THE END IS NEAR.
There’s so much to say,
But nothing to hear.
My attention is captured
By preaches of raptures,
and hell.
While church bells ring
A casual ding
Reminding us all
Of the love God brings.
Still I stay hidden beneath-
Staggering for identity
Within my own family.
I nod my head
As if brushing the rest
Away.
Today the world celebrates
The freedom to love,
Whomever we want.
But I still feel robbed,
Somehow.
Even now,
My family doesn’t recognize
That I am not a victim of sin.
I love who I do,
Regardless of religion.
I feel free outside
With these strangers,
Rather I gather myself
Before entering the place
I call my home.
My heart shrinks to fit
To the size most acceptable.
This front is inevitable.
Do all Latinos go through this?
I left my partner elsewhere,
Since her presence would scare.
So I arrive empty handed
With nothing to share.
Written by:
Desiree Chavez