IF

Can't trust for nothing

 Seems like I can't trust for nothing 

Dear Daughter

Dear Daughter, 

This is your father speaking 

if your mother woman's up I'll see you this weekend 

I know that our time spent is infrequent and as far as the animosity between your mother and 

I…know that I hate that you see this…

Since I don't want to be with her shes been bitter 

rather than letting you spend time with me she hired...

CATCH 22-MY CONFESSION

Changing the lock code on my phone frequently 

to uphold my end of the secrecy…

Your weekend rendezvous with thirsty dudes who claim they fond of you 

who cheat on who their with to be kind to you 

spit a quick line or two to amuse and confuse the situation….

but you know just like I do that nothing that they mean is sacred…

they just need you naked 

condom...

Emotions and a 5th

Heavy emotions had me open and chain smoking 

I ain't joking 

headache like a hang over

yeah thats how you reigned over 

don't ask baby girl…

no I ain't sober…

sour taste in my mouth but no I ain't kosher 

I tried to be iron like and keep the wrinkles out 

my tough tears seem to trickle down 

IF

I could apologize until the dollar dies 

scream a scholar cry till both eyes emphasized "I'm sorry" 

You'd find my passion alarming but that doesn't influence your scarring.

I could care for you until death does its part 

I could canvas your worth like fine art and cabinet you like fine china…

2nd BEST

 I'm tripping over the complexities

see most of ME wants YOU next to me 

but your in a relationship with your insecurities 

and they interrupt all the time that we sneak and spend…

Therefore Im limited on the minutes spent and we can just be friends…

Its seems so over even though it feels like its just began 

see your apprehensions proposed to you in advance and you said yes despite loves plans

Despite the fact that I love you more than Love loves love still

O W N I N G UP

I remember playing the field 

I was rookie of the year 

couldn't offer you one ear 

played hooky when you teared.

Couldn't listen, never payed attention 

to the fact that you were crying out for me 

until I could no longer smell you in my sheets…

He is who you love

You would much rather tamper with nose bleeds 

than him pamper you with roses. 

Some how you thought that his suit and tie made him soft yet you will willingly date 

a man with a history of domestic abuse who will back down when a man who is as equally  strong 

calls him out on his truths. 

This is the man you cooked and cleaned for, subconsciously adore from his thug decor to the police reports. 

You will call a...

Crack Chronicles

I hate when they praise the dope game…

talking about they getting back off cocaine…

Yeah my moms and pops know that slow pain…

trying to stay clean long enough to get us kids back 

we were in the system losing hope as they slid down that slope…

had a dream they were clean and it was a joke when I woke…

only pretty colors I ever seen growing up was whe...

The ORGY

See I used to make love to (loneliness) before I drifted off to sleep I got a forehead kiss each and every night... I was used to this. She used to tell me that she was the closest to real that I'd ever get but I would say to myself that that was some bull.I used to wake up in the mornings with her wrapped tightly in my arms, she had a close friend named ( Karma) who didn't stay that far and (loneliness) suggested that we have a threesome.I thought that maybe while we were all making love that she would start screaming out the reason as 2 why( love) seems so deceiving and why your heart and your mind always try to get even.

had a friend named (Revenge), this was the chick that always came in handy in the end and (Revenge) had a twin named (Pain) and she was the chick that came by when you got hurt by yo main. See (Loneliness) got jealous over (Revenges) influence over me so she called her main chick (Confusion) and asked her to come kick and have a chat with me! (Confusion) ...