First love now I'm grown up, in seeing what I should of

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long distance

 Detach my heart seems like a good place to start , in love with you sense i was 16 again putting u in my future, tho everyday is a struggle tryna put a smile on yo face, it's not even my fault, being real not allowing any third party's into this, having a family with you is something I couldn't miss, but you allowed him in in in the end y'all family grew,  me keeping hope alive i still tried not to let my love die,trying to protect you and yo Lil boo, I was there when he left you, stuck in yo ways know how to ruin a good day, I can feel this sh*t in my veins but you continue to look the other way, continuously shutting me out I don't know why you ask for my  opinion or why I give it  out all you do is shut me out, I don't give a f**k how you feel this is what it is is how you told me, why turn it down or turn around, continuously doing for you getting put aside for who you think is the rite guy, now you torn between me in a guy who think  with his third eye, i look you in yo eye in tell you how i feel now shocked in surprised,  I guess a clinch fist in blood shot red eyes will make u wanna see what's in my head rite now. he left you and your kid even tho iv always been there the fact of the matter, you looked me in my eyes in said talk, I feed you no bull it made yo heart stop but u just walked off the dialog stopped, as my leg shook in growing frustration not saying what I see for this in that situation to be, I'm tryna tell you cause I know better I guess me having a in knowing guys my hole life don't give me the rite to know a few cause iv lived in seen a lot around my block to know enuf when this sound like a plot to end yo life if you don't tie that knot or give him what he want in return for the money in all the gifts u keep receiving what does this mean. You of all people should know Betta  but you know him tho so it makes his actions okay that you won't say no but won't ask the man who has been by yo side when you hand nuthing giving you motivation to push out that snow in keep it moven to that doe, me in yo baby girl have the same birthday, in the end my hearts to good tho, I'm tryna tell ya when I see a that's  no good, I'm tryna save yo life but I  have nothing left to give tired of talking , heart skipping a beat cause I saw my last words, you know I love you but my love you don't deserve.