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I got the call with my resulsts
And I couldn't believe it so I tried to call her bluff'
Then the womans voice said Are you ok hun
Of course I said to her i was fine
But what I did was sit on the floor and cry
Cried for what seemed like 40 days and 40 nights
But what ended up being 4 and a half minutes
Then I stood up and took off my my cute day clothes
Threw on some baggy sweats a T-shirt and those
Those busted broke down black rebocks
Walked out of my room looking straight of the boondocks climbed two fights of staris to the roof and lit a apple black and mild
I inhaled deep and deeper
Then I exhaled my fever
Not as in temperment but as in my rage
Felt like a wild animal trapped in a cage
And even though things could have been so much worse
I wanted to punch him in the face first
Then maybe punch him in the
Or maybe I'd just castrate his
All I could hear were the words reverberating off my brain- you have gonorrhea
And I felt that I still wanted to say that - I didn't really hear ya
But I knew that the sex was too good to be true
I had an incling that i should have stayed away from you
But I didn't
And now I have to face it
I walked around the roof stopped and stared at the all the people below me
They seemed like they were happy and smiling
And it wasn't fair cuz it felt like my world was ending
But I knew deep down that it wasn't
It was all about getting a shot of somthing
Some kind of cure to make it all go away
But i knew still forever in my memory it would stay
As a reminder of the 2weeks 4 hours and 36 minutes
Till all my ***ing questions were finished
I mean till all my questions were answered
Untill I could feel like I knew exactly what was going on
But still I felt like I had no one
Sitting on the roof and staringat all the smiling happy people
Funny how they won't understand exactly how feeble they are
Untill they take a ride in that car named fear
I felt my fear the day I answered that phone to hear
To listen to a woman tell me I had an STD
And eventhough it wasn't HIV
I was still terrified
I walked back to my room smelling like smokeand fell out on the floor and cried
For what (again) seemed like 40 days and 40 nights
But (again) it wasn't but a short stint
Then I stopped and flinched as my roomate walked in
And as she stepped in I stepped out
Then walked across to the on campus clinic
And set up my appointment
I have been treated for what I was given
Never again to be over taken
By a burst of emotions or lust
But still I do realize that having what I did although scary was STD beginners luck
