What it seems

Man Of Distinction

Why must I feel this way

Every interaction leaves me feeling strange

Be it good or bad doesn't matter

All of it makes me scattered

Even if it puts me on cloud 9

My inner self can't do anything but deny

Deny it's sincere deny it's valid just out right refusal

But anything negative i may take hard but suspect it as usual

Why does the nature of you and I concern me so

Constantly pondering whether you be friend or foe

When I know the general answer

But wanting the ones that lie deeper

Am I a gluten for punishment

To want the answers to my questions too have fulfillment

Cause I continuously ponder these inquiries

Then decide I no longer want the Answer to these

(sigh) What is a girl to do with a mind full of feelings

A heart full of longing and eyes full of hopeful beg...

Question of the lonely heart

What do you do when lonelyness climbs up your spine and makes you shiver

Do you give in and quiver

Or do you tell yourself it's ok to be alone

But what if you have been so alone for so long that your not alone

You just plain old lonely

What do you do, go searching for people souly for the purpose of being with somebody

Or do you let the lonelyness envelope you like the blackness of space envelopes the world

Do you reach for the hand of that boy or girl

To ease the feelings of depression due to a lonely heart

Or will you just sit there untill death due you part

From yourself and that feeling

Or maybe it drives you into pschosis of seeing things that you shouldn't be seeing

Maybe you twitch like a tourtured worm in the black of night

From the lack of sleep

Due to the fact that you can't stand to hear the sound of your lonely heart b...

Phone Sex

 I got the feelin' last night whenI heard your voice

It sent a chill through my body asking me to make a choice

"Do you want it" whispered the voice in my ear 

So caught up I caouldn't answer the voice saying "Did i loose you my dear?"

"No" I speak up "I'm here"

Slowly your voice nspoke words of lust and I loved it

Tried hard to pull away but sh*t

Why'd you mention 

My favorite position

Was it necessary

To tell me that you'd please me for a repayment cost of free

Keep saying those things I like

And I could listen to your sexy voice all freaking night

As the words tickle the places I touch and tease

Now you're talking about standing in front of me then dropping to your knees

Could I ever really keep my control

Because you and I both know I'm ready to let it go

The words you speak

About ravishing me in your sheets

How...

The Date

 He held my hand
I kissed his cheek at the end of the day
But I wished for more
I wished he would have kissed me back
Don't know why i decided to be such a shy
I should have gone for the gold like I normaly would
But what can I say I'm no longer in the olympics of love
I just kind of
Sit back and watch all the others play in the games
While I in the stands wish it were me

So as I held his hand on the way home
He explained his issues with people and where he was coming from
I understood so I left well enough alone
I guess
But I can't lie that whole night while I slept I was a dreamy mess
Wishing I had done this or that
Or gone for the one thing I wanted really bad

Just one kiss
And it's not like there wasn't space time and opportunity I just missed it
Or refused to let myself see that it existed
So I kic...

What it seems

 There was this guy the other day
He called from the other way
And asked me for my name
I gave him a fake one
Then asked him the same
He gave me his and asked me where I was from
Told him N.Y.C knowing full damn well I was born and raised in Maryland
He laughed and said " Yo this ain't fair man"
I looked at him funny and asked what
He laughed again and said "Girl you looking at me like I just asked you to ***
Naw chick it ain't that type of party
I just saw you walking by and thought you were fly shawty
I asked you for your name and you looked at me like i was a disease
I just wanna talk and chill so put your mind at ease
I don't just want your panties"
I laughed cause I felt bad so I told him my real name and where I was really born
I gave him my contact in the phone number form
Told him to hit me up anytime
Then walked away thinkin...