secretly i admire

fool

they say God watches over babies and fools 

baby 

ive been a fool for so long 

bound-aries

if you don't set boundaries

people are bound to take the line they constantly cross 

wrap it around your neck and hang you

mess

this is the only mess i've made & can't seem to clean up

there aren't enough apologies in the world 

Or tissue to contain the constant flow of tears 

silent cry #2

i cried today 

no tears came 

my chest heaved in my head 

i could feel all the emotions 

i was overwhelmed 

what have i done to get to this point 

what do i need to learn to move on 

i'm looking for answers 

i want something out of all of this 

no title (whatever)

i can deal when you are like this 

i prefer you didnt drink 

and

since you insist

im ok with you being like this 

quiet and glued to the tube 

smiling frequently 

i wonder what you are thinking 

you so disturbingly peaceful 

picking up your cup at  2 minute intervals 

sometimes they're further apart 

once you comfortable with your intoxication 

(will be continued at a later time & maybe come up with a name)

good

i see the good in everyone 

even if no one feels any is left

by doing this i get put in the position of being used

does that make me bad or should the person being decietful feel strange

do anyone feel anything these days 

i cant tell 

im always the one who is doing to much and crazy 

why is this the case

silent cry

Have you ever had a silent cry 

those are the worst kind 

where you heave and never make a sound 

emotions ejaculating all over the place 

damn you jack 

i thought we were cooler than that 

you were prepared better 

at least you're not throwing up all over the place 

your head was in the skyy that day 

the worst thing happen when you're that way

you need your feet on the ground 

planted

illusion of inclusion

illusion of inclusion has us thinking if we fit in for a quick second 

we are guaranteed a pass for life 

little do we know as quickly as it was given it can be taken 

9 times out of 10 we are perpertrating for a stamp of approval 

from a group we were never meant to be a part of 

a world that loves to fake being color blind 

yet 

constantly remind us of how black and white she is

one who quickly puts us in our place if we ever inch outside the lines 

one uncalulated step can have us on a slab leaving our family to piece together pennies 

you would think every in the hood would have life insurance

the way our lives are easily taken... 

no title unfinished

how can you break the cycle when you're still spinning yourself 

you believe your blurred vision is the way things should be seen

how can you break the cycle when  you see nothing is wrong

Hitch Hiker