Tricks

Abortion

 excuse me if this doesnt make u cry...
i aint tryna think too much
and have these...
ocean eyes...
i
just... wanna compare somethin i thought of...
while breathing in deeply
and holding in the gulp between my chest and throat
pushing back the rivers behind my eyes
im
not goin in too deep..
.just seems like,
this unnatural separation of you...and me
is like
ripping an unborn life from a mother's womb
from its comfort,
warmth,
away from it's source of nutrients
snatched umbillical cord
nightmare screams,
no air
so much potential
dead
before it ever got to live
never got to flourish
never got to see it's plans...
but its outta my hands...
this love has been unnaturally
cruel and unusually
aborted...

Run

 if i run,
and just keep going...

til my chest is caving, my air is thin
my breath is short...
my legs burn,
and my thighs catch fire

far away

creating wind tornado's and kickin up dust

run

slicing the atmosphere around me
sweat down my forehead
mixing with my tears

if i just run it away til my body
hurts worse than this broken spirit...
would i end up anywhere different

from where i started?
would my finish line be the same as the beginning?
does it matter....
if i run and just keep going...

Tricks

 how long will my existence hide behind a shadow of hollow filled density...
How many more tricks can i perform to stay relevant...
My invisibility is evident
& evidently you r not amused...
How much longer can i mentally maintain to entertain a sleeping audience
& The audacity of you to sleep on me...
Happy is boring & nice isn't fun
You chase someone who's running
& run away from the one who loves
....Im out of breath
Asthma attacking my lungs to keep providing Oxygen in attempts to pump blood into a broken off beat heart...
You will Miss me wen I go
You will dismiss me til i move on
Im trying to avoid having to tell you no
Cuz if you ever give me that much time...
To get over what we Have...
that would leave me too far to ever find my way back...
Pay attention...
How Long will you nullify my existence
How many more tricks can...