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MEN

 i can see the interest is depreciating swiftly
they are all alike
similar, the same
in different ways
same motive different face
different age, different phases
they wear different clothes
and they live in different places
but they remain ageless and shameless
find somewhere to place it,
then replace it
im lookin for permanant placement
but our paralleled connection somehow became adjacent
come and find me
not behind me nor beside me
just lead me
protect me
love me
touch me
need me
aching with hunger for your vibes
come and feed me
some will stay some will go...
dont flee me
feel me, see me
look at me...
from the inside to my inside
intertwine in-mind
keep me in ur soul
even when im not in sight...
just try to keep me in mind
show it with your man hood
...

Aquarian Oddyssey

 maybe it makes more sense to love the one who loves you

maybe its foolish to chase someone who doesnt care
but i can only love with a love that is there

inside of me

cant understand for the life in me
why he continues to abide in me

his love professed so silently
not likely for him to die in me...

my heart dont care what eyes can see
my soul dont sense it logically
my feelings dodge the "obviously"
to MAYBE catch the "probably"

the possibly...

the comedy

so used to his debotury

"bad" became the common thing
and tears are flowing commonly

absent was the honesty
absent is the honoring

his soul yearned for laughter
and my heart was the commodity

the pain he afflicts only deepens my philosophy
it was in our numerology
it was in our astrology
written in the stars
my aquarian odyssey

...

Forcing Arms

 love should've never been that hard
why was it so easy falling..
forcing arms to catch
never caught
battles, lost
straining...fought
lost,
draining, pushing, pleaing
praying, hoping, pretending...
lost
so deep in a fantasy
he was the perfect character
he played the man of my dreams
i failed to realize reality
he never saw... thing thing's i'd see
im stuck re-evaluating
replacing the pieces where they truly fit
changing the colors on a canvas
re-designing an already put together work of art
re-vision what i thought i saw
it never was...
i was only lost
and love, should've never been that hard

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 i had you in my heart like gold in a safe....

safe

secure, perfectly placed

i do what i gotta do to keep it where it lay...
but if it decides not to stay...
it shall be erased...

i swear i'll forget you like memories mixed with boose
i'll leave it all behind,
like Cinderella and her shoe

i'll let it all go

it'll never bother me again
control alt delete the pain
i'll unfollow, unfriend

poof...

outta my head

you,

outta my hands

truth

into my plans

new
enter the land...

call me anistasia
i forgot who i was
young, and in love, most certainly dumb...
you wish i was numb, but im itchin for fun
im feindin for lust, and yearnin for love...

fetching for feeling...
im human, i fee...

Cold Rain

 
love me in cold rain
love me in scorching beams of rays....in shameful days....
love me in rags & no riches,
head full of rollers & a sink full of dishes,
love me when I’m in’,
love me even when I do deeds of the un-forgiven,
love me despite my flesh ...love me for my spirit
love my inner saint though outward im a sinner,
love me for my skin of stone washed denim & scarred exterior...
love this broken mirror
love the pieces that reveal me,
somebody gotta take the stand & love me for the real me....
look past my beauty & look past my ugly...
at my best & at my worst,
in the coldest rain....
just love me.