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Deja vu...
Fires of passion
Unexplainable rushes of blissful chills
Twinkles effortlessly stand front & center in my eyes
Timeless.
Every minute of every second of every hour of a day is spent in awe of ur presence
Two becoming one
I witness the world through ur eyes
Haven't I been here before?
Contemplated my own personal hell
That's where I had to be to get to u
Guess I'm supposed to look past the pain
Flashing a grin of cordial obedience
Hell no.
U can't tell me about what lovers do.
God, I want to cry,
Crawl into a corner awaiting my last breath
'Cause this man renders me weak with 1 touch,
but I'm afraid to give in.
See every time ur lips form a word
My psyche barriers the sound
Transferring my focus to ur masculine smell
Exposing my memory to the visual of him..
deeming the essence of my breath an inferority complex
& still I worshipped the ground holdin the residue
of the worthless spit & writhing thrusts he cast on me.
Take heed ladies, this is the stupid & damn triflin men do.
Dedicated my life to appeasing u
Guaranteed a spot if only she left u
When the water in ur well of lust was 5 chicks deep plus "her" & me
All the time God's man was patiently waiting for me.
I tried to sabotage my breakthrough making him equal u,
However my heart wouldn't let me sentence myself to damnation twice
Neither would u,
U held me in ur arms & delicately whispered:
"I love u"
Love..
Something I've been on a quest to find
A jewel I took for granted on an average 'cause I was on his dime
I learned a different lesson this time.
No longer am I a game to play, contently equipped with disposable parts
He polished me up & made me a collector's item.
No longer am I a robotic barbie
U can't dress me up to mask ur insecurities, the list is too big & my esteem, love I can offer & sanity is worth much more.
I am not stupid in love
He kissed together the pieces of my shattered heart, loved each twinge of pain away & prayed for my delieverance to the home in his soul.
I am not curious anymore
I am free..
In love.
