"Girl to Woman"

"Girl to Woman"

My mistakes have made me strong 

From doing things wrong to right and then back to wrong

I've closed my ears and opened my heart and I've listened to the beat of my own

Even though I'm almost 18, I'm just now taking heed to my wings but still I haven't flown

As a youngin' I took in so much responsibility, bull, and stress

I'm starting to begin to think how any of me is left

Life couldn't be anymore real

From playing dominos to finding my sex appeal

From meeting my 1st period and n*ggas that don't want relationships but something to feel

My heart isn't broken but it's bruised and it won't heal

All of my past times have brought me to my knees before but now I won't even kneel

I'm growing stronger amd smarter every now and then

Even though I went from being a girl, skipped young lady, and went straight to woman 

"The World"

This World is full of characters

Everyone's deaf but not blind

One is quick to point out the weak or different for a spot in line

The selective hearing blocks that individuals' sight of their own faults

But they don't care as long as they reach the top

This World is full of poverty and racism

The U.S. can turn at the blink of an eye to aid a third world country, but what about our own third world ghettos?

Racism doesn't make it any better

I'm fed up with discrimination toward color and sex

Just because I'm a black female I can't do or achieve as good as the rest?

This World has problems deeper than war

Mostly, all of them are self-made problems but what for? 

"Empty Thought 2"

 Prick me and what is bled that I bleed

Verbal words of a young black woman's life and memories

I'm leaking and hurt so I'm looking for a new host to infect

Infect them so my thoughts and wisdom live on that I pro-ject

Until one day so many will preach my mentality even in sign language

But who am I kidding, you got to be the President or become famous

Just to be heard?

Yep,  gotta go through uncivilized steps that are just absurd

No wonder why there are so many changed or deferred dreams

Dreams that might be able to change the World into a better scene

"Empty Thought"

 I'm trying to make my mark before I short circuit, you know before I permanently leave

Gotta let you see the perceptions that I bleed

Perceptions about this Earth

Yea, the God-known sin-forsakened recipe

On how to learn, live, and be

But what does fulfilling a destiny mean to me

Nothing

'Cause there are none, just rich/fake or poor/real life ending journeys 

So why buy the cow if the milk is free

'Cause its not, not even the air that you breathe

If you don't understand then let your mind relax and expand

That's when you will see

"Word Slaughter Jr."

I just want to be successful

That's right fellow poets, don't stop until you're higher then high

'Cause that's what I'm going to do until I'm full like the alpha male of a pride

Yea who would of thought a female of my age would have this mind

Well, surprise!!!!

Smart as a Gandhi and I won't stop

I change my mind 

I'll stop when my grandkids' kids, God forbiding, bodies drop

I mean why knock me?

'Cause I'm supposedly too young to know what's going on, or because I'm a she?

Wish Martin Luther King Jr.or Tupac were alive so someone else could hear me

But Professor Michael Eric Dyson is still here so maybe we could have an intelligent connection

Molding cerebral webs to reach time in the opposite thought-out positive direction 

This is my Word Slaughter Jr.

Gotta open your ears and close your eyes to feel me later but sooner then soon

Mind wider and longer...

"Word Slaughter"

I drown my sorrow in words

Drowned in nothing but adjectives, metaphors, and verbs

Gotta be crooked to understand me 

'Cause my thoughts slant and curve

Trying to infect my new host with wisdom, the new cancer

And if you didn't know by now hope is not the answer

But reaction time is

This is for me and my generation's kids

'Cause we barely have someone to learn off of anymore

Tried to tell me riding people over is how you score

What, speak louder because I seem to be deaf to bull

Noble and honest ways are how I'm going to get all of the cheese and ritz

Certain individuals make me sick sometimes

Judging people no matter what the race is if they are trying to pass them in line

Something that should of been checked before it reached its' prime

This is my Word Slaughter

Fighting for beliefs stronger and harder

The new smart World order

"Rebel of Society"

I don't hear you but I see you

I do it that way because I am not to play the fool

The soft bellow of your sinful percussions are as smooth as a southern pimp's dress code

But I stay rigid for your eyes betray your secret without the skipping that shall be lost no more

Chasing new heights with the sides of a sour patch kid

One sour and the other sweet

Look out World, I'm sure to demolish your obstacles or make you accomplish defeat

"Daddy's Little Girl"

 Daddy's little girl

Supposed to be provided viable lessons and the World

Maybe even some occasional yellow lillies or white roses, daddy's girl chains and tender forehead kisses

But instead I sit back and watch strangers replay remnants of my emptiness 

But I drowned the tears in alcohol, clouded my thoughts with smoke, and voiced my feelings between the sheets 

Even so. I'm still left with the memory of the fact that I have none 

Except that because of you for fifteen years my mom lied to me about you from day one

I hate you for being absent 

Yet I still wish to hold your love for ransom

Just wish you knew about your beautiful pearl

And how I still wish to be Daddy's Little Girl