Scared as hell
To face the people who said I’d fail
As a father
As a husband
As a man
I knew the ship was sinking all along but I was scared to bail
Now my options are looking as grim as choosing: Dead or Jail
And what do I tell my son,
When an explanation is requested?
When he’s laying with a woman he’s not married to
Should he try to commit to something his father could barely do
Baby mama drama, and I carry 2
Damn….I’m petrified, I can barely move
So much is at stake
And I shake in fear
Wishing that we would never have to take it here
Lawyers to write it up so we can make it clear
Litigation to split up everything we created here…
It’s all in fast-forward
It’s moving too damn slowly
I’m hurt…It’s that simple, man, I hate what this became
Only one person in the world I gave something as sacred as my name
And now I’m ashamed
Of what we made of it
The Road that lies ahead is darkness
And I’m very afraid of it
Facing it all alone, without running away from it
But that does nothing to the fear
Of being judged by a system that measures men who never cared
Who want nothing to do with their children
And then they assume I nothing different
Case no. 1345DE
I'm afraid of what's happening