So she's moved on...
I knew it was bound to happen eventually but...I couldn't realy accept it.Now i see it and it feels like i hadn't expected it.Contemplating and over-thinking about it is nothing compared to experiencing it.Right infront of my eyes I witnessed the presence of that smile I dearly miss.The sparkle in the eyes i seen so many times before i roze to eutopia through a kiss.The look she has when she's shy, melts my heart away even though i call myself snow.We had that slight eye-contact...but it was just and indication that she knows its her I'm missing.But that's shooting stars with peashooters, she could've been just lookin in my direction.Over-thinking?Can't help it, I've fallen in quick sand while trying to build a sand castle.How I wish it was un-true and I was writing about something else other than her.I should probably get on with life, can't realy say its unfair.I had her, lost her, I was somewhere else...whenever I was with her, I wasn't realy there...even though I wish i wasIt certanly isn't fable that you don't realise what you have until its gone.Over are those days when we'd have phone calls 3hours long.Texting her when i've just departed from her, already thinking its been too long.Her sweet voice illuminating my day like a chandelier.Her eyes which I could admire all day, she's the first girl thats gottten me to shed a tear.Not in bad times but good times when things were in full gear.Gone are those days, sad days to come.Curiosity casting a spell on me, need to see her, even though she's going to be with him...Twist of a dagger in my heart, inflicted by my own hand...painless as it beats only for her.The unpredictable wheel of life.